Should I get a diagnosis for my (potential, but extremely probable) mental illness? I only have friends with shit (and in one case traumatic) experiences with psychiatrists and psychologists, but on the other hand a diagnosis can give me some of the leeway I need in my uni system. I’m not sure how much longer I can pretend I don’t want to kill myself because it’s not convenient for my bank account to pay for help.
Yeah, definitely go get some help. If money is an issue, start with your university’s mental health services. Don’t put it off. Schedule an appointment, and then go show up. I know it’s scary, but you’ll be okay.
(Also, for the record, you don’t only have friends with shit experiences. Trust me, once you get some help, I think you’ll be surprised to discover how many people you know who’ve had decent experiences with mental health professionals.)