First off, I respect you so much from the posts I’ve read!
Secondly, I need some perspective. The problem is that sex just isn’t doing it for me. I feel like I only like the idea of sex. The first time I had sex, well, it didn’t last long since we were both really young and new to it, but after he got a bit of a tolerance and it lasted longer it never lived up to my expectations. There’s foreplay, we talk dirty to each other, and when we’re having sex he is trying to make me feel good. I don’t know if he’s still just inexperienced or if I just can’t feel good. I’ve never had an orgasm other than on my own, which still is disappointing, and now when he goes down on me I just make him stop because I know it’s not going anywhere (I don’t want to hurt his ego so by “telling him to stop” it’s more of me telling him to fuck me). It probably sounds like I don’t get into it, but I can promise every time I’m horny as hell, it just never blows my mind I guess i could say.
I just don’t know what to think. I’m still young, but I can’t help but worry that this is what sex is like. Shed some light?
Did you ever play a musical instrument? Ever in a band?
You were embarrassingly bad at first, weren’t you? It was an uncoordinated, cacophonous mess. You fucking sucked.
Same thing here. You are having the sexual equivalent of middle school band practice.
Don’t worry, rookie. It gets better. Much, much better.