I’m sixteen and have never had a real relationship, just a bunch of mild drunken hook-ups. I don’t want to put time and effort into someone I’m not crazy about, but I’m afraid that when I actually have relationships, I’m always going to be the person who likes the other slightly more. Also, I have crushes on people I don’t know very well, so I can construct their personality into something I like better. And then I always find out that they’re assholes. Fix me?
You’re not broken. You’re sixteen.
All that shit you’re feeling is right on schedule, and the fact that you’re self-aware about it means you’re ahead of the game.
Don’t worry. One day, you’ll be able to spot assholes before you crush on them.
In the meantime, try not to think in terms of relationships. Just enjoy the company of interesting and respectful boys and/or girls.