I did it. I left work early and I did it. All the way up until I knocked on his door, I didn’t think I would. I still care about him. But I wasn’t happy. The worst part was that he was still so kind to me even though I don’t deserve it. I feel like a different person.
It sounds like it went as well as a thing like that can go. Everything you’re feeling is perfectly normal. It’s okay to still care about him, and it’s also okay to have put your happiness first. You’re gonna be a raw nerve for a bit, so just take it easy, and feel what you gotta feel.