I got an interview to Yale school of art and then got denied. I got denied from my back up school too. Now I have no clue what I should do with my year. I’m really tired of working my shitty day job and trying to have a studio practice. I’m too drained (physically and emotionally) to do both, and now I feel like I’m doing a shitty job at both. I’m self aware enough to know I’m being a fucking brat, but how do I stop acting like a fucking brat and find a balance that makes me happy?
You wanna stop acting like a fucking brat? Okay. Quit your shitty day job. Sell, give, or throw away all your worldly possessions. Join the fucking Peace Corps.
You dodged a fucking bullet by not getting into art school. Now quit wasting your life and go do something that scares the shit out of you.
Oh, and since you asked, do you wanna know why you’ll never find a balance that makes you happy? Because you think I’m fucking kidding.