Advice

On pause

You’ve been awfully quiet lately. Cat got your tongue?

I’m going through a thing at the moment. It’s a lot. Life in 2020 is super fucking weird. Thank you for your patience.

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50 thoughts on “On pause

  1. James says:

    Hey, take care of yourself. That you’re still here at all is a gift to this cursed year. Take your time, be kind to yourself. We’ll be here when you’re ready.

  2. SisuPseudio says:

    I’ve been so happy to see Coke writing again after so long. But if you’re truly mind boggled as to why she didn’t go back to blogging with a vengeance in this time of turmoil, you’re living in an incredibly comfortable bubble.

  3. a says:

    The whole West Coast feels you. I spent over a week inside, struggling to breathe clean air. Somehow we got through it. I know you will too.

  4. Jake says:

    I’m a hot fucking mess all the time & I’m sorry for flooding your comment section when I’m drudging through old posts @ early AM, but if it’s worth anything, a lot of us were helped through the most difficult times of our life by your writing

    A lot of us wish there was some way we could manifest a perfect life for you, and there’s no way to say this without sounding creepy (sorry) but you’re on a lot of people’s minds, thanks to how you’ve shaped a whole section of the internet’s voice

    When I started reading I was in grade 9 and that means your advice has been with me for just under half my life, now that I’m 25 (soon 26.)

    I was a maladaptive piece of shit who caused drama because he was failing to cope with a rough childhood, which is cliche as fuck. It’s still true, however, and I’ve been working through the trauma I brought on myself as well as the trauma brought in by others.

    You’ve answered a few of my questions, and at one point, helped someone close to me choose life instead of suicide after a work accident that left him partially maimed. I sat him down and told him to write what he felt. He asked if I would leave the room, which took me by surprise.

    A few months later he broke the privacy he asked me to keep, and showed me which question was his. I didn’t know his injuries were more severe than initially presented. Obviously, based on the rest of the submission I had a strong feeling it was him but also (mistakenly) believed he would have told me the full story.

    So I kept it in my head that stranger coincidences happen–after all, he was always the type to trust me and he did go out of his way to make it seem like he needed advice on coping with the injury rather than considering suicide because of how bad it actually was.

    You may be pleased to hear that a high-risk surgery restored function to part of his body and he might have died before you responded to his question.

    As for me, it’s a slightly different story, but it’s one I’m working on by myself minus all the poisonous, defensive posturing which kept me socially isolated until I borrowed your voice and started calling myself out.

    Like I said, I don’t know if this means anything to you.

    If it does, then I hope you find comfort in your ability to share wisdom and soothe human suffering.

    I don’t know who you are or what you’re going through, but you taught me and so many other people “you are not the sum of your burdens.”

    So, if you can manage to in this strange day and age, find as many people who can help you heal from or overcome these challenges.

    Never give up.

    Stay wild.

  5. Annnnna says:

    Well hell, it’s not like the internet is going anywhere unless 2020 doubles down and treats us to a massive solar storm. ttyl <3

    • H says:

      An entitled “(…)who wish to be cared for”, is not a given incentive for someone to update. There is nothing that another person is obliged to give to you, be it an update or a fuck.

    • Mr. Orange says:

      Maybe don’t post a little something… to soothe your hurt feelers that someone is taking appropriate time to care for themselves instead of paying attention to you?

      No one owes you anything. Ever. Especially not someone who has helped SO many for so long. Maybe you didn’t mean to come across all passive-aggressive?

      Try to learn from this experience that you need to take care of yourself, because you never know when the random internet stranger from whom you’ve been receiving comfort suddenly disappears due to… life.

  6. Rudy says:

    Hey Coquette! Just thinking of you. Hope you are well. We got Biden in office, so hopefully that has brought you some comfort. It sure has for me! Thank you for coming back after such a long hiatus throughout 2019 and 2020. Thank you for all your great writing and advice over the years. Popping on here and hitting “Random” is what I do never fails! <3

    • VeryOn says:

      The thing that really kills me is that we wouldn’t have escaped four more without Covid warping our votes back to paper.
      I still think we’re doomed. The virus is already mutating; 17 new variations, some very dangerous.
      Near nothing has been done about global warming. My fear is that warmed soil bacteria will fart us to death while fisheries are depleted and everything burns to the ground.

    • Melissa Enders says:

      Every single post has been saved into a screenshot on my iCloud, spinning around in janky little fireflies swarming sticky sweaty spheres, till the end of the exhalation of the black hole.

      • Melissa Enders says:

        Oh duh, me. Every single post has been saved in these Internet archives floating in the satellites, accessible to alien civilisations.

        I did not need to be obsessive about screenshotting it. The reason I do so is for my own reference. I massively distrust Big Tech as they’ve had the history of erasing information off the Internet.

        • Chris says:

          Sometimes a site just goes offline and with it, all the content. Or the author un-posts.

          If CQ didn’t want to pay the monthly costs of keeping the site up, and doesn’t want to sell it, then we should assume they won’t be here any longer.

          And it will be okay.

          • Melissa Enders says:

            I meant that there are archives stored in our internet satellites, which are linked to that of alien civilisations’.

            There are zero chances of Planet Earth being the first and original planet and civilisation.

            There are zero chances of Planet Earth being the most advanced civilisations.

            Alien planets have the Internet too, albeit invisible to us.

            Our archives are theirs, too.

            Ultimately, everything will be gone, though.

    • Mowemalldown says:

      While there are many idiots having children during a peak global crisis which will never abate — and some of these creatures are even *planning* these kids!! — I doubt coke is that stupid or selfish.

      • Baby Danger says:

        This has been fairly mild, especially given the reach many are putting forth to say it’s a crisis.

        I mean “we lost more people to this than in WWII”. Sure, but less than we lose to smoking-related illnesses every year since about 1970.

        And how many COVID deaths were of people who’ve been smoking 30+ years?

        We’re healthier and stronger than we’ve ever been. If you want kids and can afford to have them, go for it.

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