Advice

On missing something

Dear Coquette,

Is it unhealthy that most of the sex I’ve had has been whilst under the influence? I never thought of it that way until my two closest friends brought it up to me the other day and now I feel like I’m meant to feel wrong for not seeing it as unhealthy. The thing is, I’m not a relationship kind of person, and I don’t have a particularly high sex-drive, so I don’t really go looking for it, so it tends to happen more if I’m out having a few drinks and a laugh. One friend claimed it’s the most depressing thing he’s ever heard, and the other said maybe I should stop. It’s not like I’m going out, getting trashed and bringing people home constantly, or being stupid or hurtful about it in anyway. In fact for the best part of the last two years until recently I’ve slept with one guy and often that was sober … so, basically, I don’t get their issue. Am I missing something?


Do yourself a favor and stop using the word “whilst” in written correspondence. It makes you sound like a gigantic asshole.

Then again, your friends sound like gigantic assholes too, so maybe you’re just a product of your environment. Either way, don’t ever allow yourself to be slut-shamed, especially by friends.

Remember, it’s not about how often you’re having sex under the influence. It’s about why you’re having sex under the influence. In your case, it sounds like you’ve built up an identity around not being “a relationship kind of person,” whatever that means.

I’m not saying it’s unhealthy, but it’s obviously a rationalization for your pattern of behavior. Odds are, you’re just a young girl with a light dusting of garden-variety attachment issues. If anything, consider focusing some energy on forming intimate connections with people in your life.

For instance, you said until recently, you’d spent the better part of the last two years in a monogamous relationship. (Actually, you said the “best” part of the last two years, which has some significance in its double meaning, but I digress.) You went out of your way not to call this guy your boyfriend. That’s fine, but it’s also significant. What’s going on there?

I don’t know any of the details, but I get the sense that you’re going through a kind of post-breakup phase. Naturally, you’d play it off as anything other than a traditional breakup, but that doesn’t change the fact that the underlying emotions are still the same, and that the resulting patterns of behavior are fairly predictable.

Like it or not, you’re rebounding right now. You asked me flat out if you were missing something (a question that’s also loaded with double meaning.) The answer, of course, is yes. You are missing something.

Maybe you’re missing the ability to connect with just one guy. Maybe you’re missing that one guy in particular. Maybe you’re just missing the point. I don’t know, but you’re definitely missing something.

That’s not to say there’s anything unhealthy or destructive about your current pattern of behavior. I’m not judging you for having drunken sex, and you shouldn’t let others judge you either. Still, it’s worth a bit of serious self-examination to discover the root causes of why you’re acting this way.

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Fun-Sized Advice

On fun sized advice.

Dear Coquette,

My best friend is dating my crush. How do I deal with it?
Un-crush, or disaster will follow.


How can you tell the difference between bad timing and a jerk?

If it’s obvious to you that it’s bad timing, then that’s probably what it is. If he’s trying to convince you that it’s bad timing, then he’s probably a jerk.


What’s your opinion on Rihanna collaborating with Chris Brown?

Just gonna stand there and watch her burn. That’s all right, because she likes the way it hurts.


I cried at work yesterday. Now I feel like a pansy. Help?

No one cares. Get over yourself.


What if everybody could have sex with anyone at any given time? What do you think would happen?

You still wouldn’t get laid.


Coquette, have you reached Samādhi?

No, but I love Indian food.


What do you think about Obamacare?

I think it’s a reductive ad hominem label for complex health care legislation. It’s just branding that encourages idiots to reflexively polarize on what should otherwise be a complicated sociopolitical debate.


What’s the difference between being lovers and being “friends with benefits?”

One is a tragedy that makes you laugh. The other is a comedy that makes you cry.


Why do the Catholic bishops and Rick Santorum hate (or fear) sex so much?

They don’t hate or fear sex. They merely want to control sex, and what they hate and fear is anything that threatens that control, because without it, the patriarchy crumbles.


If a member of the opposite sex with whom you’re kind of friends asks you to go with him to a party, how can you know whether it’s a date or just two people attending a thing together because they’re kind of friends?

You do realize that you’re the one who gets to decide whether it’s a date, right? Yep, it’s completely up to you. (Relax, you can change your mind at any point throughout the evening.)


Should I use all my savings on heading to Antibes to try get a job on a super yacht, or should I stay in Melbourne, develop my professional career and explore new love with someone even my cynical, feminist mother thinks is worth putting my travel plans on hold for? WWCQD?

It depends. If you’re 20 years old with $2,000 in savings, go to Antibes. If you’re 30 years old with $20,000 in savings, stay in Melbourne. If you’re 25 years old with $10,000 in savings, flip a coin.


I keep dating men who are emotionally unavailable. Why do I keep doing this? What can I do to stop this cycle?

This is not a cycle. This is just a pattern of behavior. Your behavior. You are the common thread in all your relationships. I don’t know why you keep choosing emotionally unavailable men, but if you really wanted to stop doing it, you would stop. Yes, it’s that simple.

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Best-Of Advice

On sex and healing

Dear Coquette,

So, I’m 22 years old and I finally lost my virginity last weekend. I’m not dating the guy, but we have been seeing each other for a few months. I was raised to believe your virginity is a gift that should be saved until marriage, and my parents even gave me a purity ring, but over the past few years my own religious views have evolved and changed and I don’t identify with Christianity anymore.

That being said, I still carry a really messed-up view of sexuality. Somewhere along the way, I began associating sex with something dirty and shameful. My first kiss was with a stranger and we were both drunk. The only time I’ve given a BJ and the first time I was fingered were both against my will. I was never raped, but when I was scheduled for my first gyno appointment, I broke down crying so hard she decided not to examine me.

Clearly, I have issues, but back to last weekend. Despite my own messed up view of myself, I am very anti-slut shaming and I admire women who are confident with their sexuality. I think part of the reason I had put off losing my virginity so long was because I was afraid of feeling dirty, regretting it, and the like, but I feel like it was a healing thing. It was consensual, the guy asked several times if I wanted to, and despite the fact that it hurt like hell, I enjoyed it. I feel like it was a really cathartic experience, if that makes sense.

I’m not asking for any particular advice (unless you have some to give), but I don’t feel ready to talk to someone about this on a personal level and I feel that reading your columns (all of them, not just the ones about sex) has really helped me on my road to feeling good about sexuality. Thanks for the free therapy!

This breaks my heart, and we need to be clear about a couple things up front. If someone forces you to perform oral sex against your will, that is rape. If someone penetrates you against your will — even with a finger — that is rape.

I understand why you feel the need think otherwise, but telling yourself that you were never raped is a certain kind of denial that is at the heart of what you call your “issues.”

I’m not saying you should start considering yourself a victim. You shouldn’t. I just want you to recognize and accept that what you experienced really was sexual trauma. That’s okay, though, because you’re right about the healing.

Part of the reason losing your virginity was so cathartic is because it was willful and deliberate. You had control over the situation and your own sexuality. That’s a powerful experience after having carried around so much guilt and shame about your early sexual encounters.

You’re not done healing, though. You still have a lot of complicated emotions to process, and it’s not made any easier by an upbringing filled with purity rings and religious sexual repression. That’s also okay, though, because you’re on the right path.

You’re starting to realize that the “really messed up” view of sexuality you’ve been carrying around isn’t actually yours. You’re letting go of the unhealthy aspects of your past by taking control of not only your own sexuality, but of your own sexual values.

Keep doing what you’re doing. Continue healing, and continue strengthening your own personal set of values. You’ll get there.

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Best-Of Advice

On the real reason he bugs you

Dear Coquette,

After a year and a half, I finally realized why my roommate’s boyfriend bugs me: He’s boring. He’s a perfectly nice, perfectly attractive, perfectly successful functioning adult, but he has nothing terribly interesting to say, or at least not to me. Then, when my roommate is together with her boyfriend, she feeds off his Wonderbread loaf of a personality and ceases to be an exciting person with creativity and dreams.

Am I wrong to think like this? Am I just a jealous single bitch? Am I just as equally boring for hanging out with these boring people?


Yeah, it’s all about you, isn’t it?

Your roommate’s boyfriend isn’t boring. You’re just bored by your roommate’s boyfriend. See the difference? Of course you don’t, because you’re the center of the whole damn universe.

After a year and a half, what you should have finally realized is that you’re an incredibly self-centered girl who gets annoyed when the people in your life stop playing whatever role it is that you’ve assigned to them.

You don’t seem to care how your roommate actually feels. You just care that she continues playing the role of the “exciting person with creativity and dreams.” Whose dreams are we talking about, anyway? I’m gonna go out on a limb here and guess yours, because it sounds like your roommate is pretty darned happy in her relationship with a perfectly nice, perfectly attractive, perfectly successful functioning adult.

Take a step back and ask yourself, why would a perfectly nice, perfectly attractive, perfectly successful functioning adult have nothing terribly interesting to say to you? Is it because he’s boring? Is it because you’re boring?

Nope and nope. Shocking as this may seem, he has nothing terribly interesting to say to you because he doesn’t exist to hold your interest. Sorry, babe. He’s not there for your entertainment. Neither is your roommate.

I know your type. You don’t feed off of chaos and drama. You’re not an evil person, but still, you quietly exist as an emotional singularity around which everyone else in your world revolves.

Unfortunately, your roommate’s boyfriend doesn’t love you or hate you. He does nothing to piss you off or make you laugh. It’s not that he’s boring. It’s that he’s in your world and yet totally indifferent to you.

That’s the real reason he bugs you.

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Best-Of Advice

On playing dress-up

Dear Coquette,

I’m interested in so many fields. From bartending to chemical engineering and journalism and law. I get that no one cares about your degree, but since these areas do all kind of require some kind of credentials, how should I prepare for them?

Sincerely,

An Enthusiastic High School Junior

You don’t want to be a bartender. You want to be a hipster mixologist rocking out signature martinis for a bunch of starry-eyed hotties at the coolest bar you’ve never been to.

You don’t want to be a chemical engineer. You’re a fan of “Breaking Bad,” and you want to be a modern-day wizard who secretly has the knowledge to whip up a fresh batch of blue crystals.

You don’t want to be a journalist. You want to be a truth-chasing, gut-following investigative reporter with a reputation for integrity and a show on one of the cable news channels.

You don’t want to be a lawyer. You don’t even know what it means to be a lawyer. You just like the idea that if you stay in school long enough, one day you’ll be able to wear a suit and tell people that you’re a lawyer.

See what I’m getting at here? You’re not really interested in those fields. You’re interested in those identities. You’re fantasizing. You’re playing dress-up and make-believe with your future self. That’s fine. You’re a teenager. It’s what you’re supposed to be doing.

The problem is, there are a lot of twenty-somethings out there with dust gathering on their liberal arts degrees, still doing the exact same thing that you’re doing at sixteen.

I’ll give to them the exact same advice I’ll give to you: Don’t create an identity for yourself that isn’t rooted in the real world. You can bartend for a few years while putting yourself through engineering school, but whatever you end up doing, recognize that it’s gonna be a grind.

It doesn’t matter what kind of credentials you earn or what field you eventually choose. You’re guaranteed to spend at least a half-decade paying dues at the entry level. You’ll work longer hours, doing harder work than your bosses for significantly less pay. Nothing will be handed to you, and in all likelihood, the experience will be degrading and a little bit soul-crushing.

If you want to prepare for a career, then don’t pick your field based on the fantasy. Make an honest assessment of your talents, and pick your field based on the reality.

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Advice

On struggling with mortality

Dear Coquette,

I struggle to accept my own morality and have become obsessed with the work of Aubrey de Grey. I am even counting on his research succeeding within my lifetime, and I think this expectation is unhealthy. I know you just recently covered mortality, and while I’m not having panic attacks, I’m still terrified. I’m in complete denial of death, and I’m having trouble accepting the fact that de Grey’s research could very well fail, or not be finished within my short existence. What advice could you offer someone who knows there’s no afterlife to look forward to, but still won’t accept mortality?


Every generation has an eccentric doctor with a wacky beard who thinks the human species can thwart the aging process and cheat death. Aubrey de Grey is just a 21st-century John Harvey Kellogg.
 

That’s not criticism, by the way. Extending human life is a noble pursuit, and I like Aubrey. He’s got some really fantastic ideas and an even more fantastic beard, but please don’t let him fool you into thinking you can live forever. The average lifespan isn’t going to skyrocket into triple digits any time soon. Sorry, dude. Inevitability is a bitch, and one day, you are going to die.

I know. It’s scary. You’re born pink and helpless into an infinite universe. You experience a narrow, self-centered consciousness still very much tethered to its lowly reptilian origins. If you’re lucky, the gray meat behind your eyes keeps warm long enough for you to experience about 40 million minutes of self-awareness. That’s it. That’s all. When the blood stops flowing to your skull, your consciousness will simply cease to exist.

Don’t worry. You won’t feel a thing.

Seriously, though. Stop being so afraid of death. Let go of your fear. Not to belittle the impending abyss, but it’s really no big deal. The vast sea of nothingness after your die is no different than the vast sea of nothingness before you were born, and yet you’re not the least bit terrified of what happens before birth. Why, then, are you so terrified of what happens after death?

You’re only freaked out because you have a limited understanding of the causal arrow of time and an ego that relentlessly insists upon itself. You can’t help but notice the clock ticking, and your ego can’t handle the idea that the clock eventually stops. Thing is, that’s probably going to end up being a silly way to view what it means to die.

The fact that the clock is ticking in the first place is most likely going to turn out to be a limitation of our skewed perception of reality. I’m not saying time doesn’t exist. I’m just saying that human beings have a pretty crappy track record of making assumptions about the true nature of the universe.

Hell, it took our species about 99% of its existence just to figure out that the planet we lived on was round. We’ve made some lovely improvements since then, but I think our current linear interpretation of time is also merely a stage in our cognitive evolution.

If we humans are lucky enough to develop and get a peek at that next level stuff, I have a sneaking suspicion that one day, asking what happens after you die will be similar to asking what happens after you walk off the edge of the Earth.

Of course, this type of frivolous philosophical pondering isn’t going to change the fact that every last living creature is eventually going to kick the bucket. Consciousness will end, and our egos will all be annihilated.

The trick to accepting your mortality is to annihilate your ego before death does it for you. That’s what all the religious and spiritual teachers are trying to tell you to with their myths of resurrection and rebirth. They understand the value of being able to die before you die. Once you’ve done that, you can live happily with no fear of death.

It would be great if de Grey’s research eventually proved successful and we could all live for a thousand years, but all that extra life won’t bring you any more enlightenment and inner peace until you’ve faced your fears and come to terms with your own death.

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On fun-sized advice.

Dear Coquette,

Are there such things as absolutes, or is everything just relative to the way we choose to see them?
No.


What is the difference between self-respect and integrity?

Integrity is objective. Self-respect is subjective. 


What do you do when you come out as gay and your parents completely reject your existence and try to “fix” you? I’m disgusted and at a loss. I don’t know what to do anymore.

Fix them instead.


What do you think of Newt Gingrich’s request for an open marriage?

That raging narcissist didn’t ask for an open marriage. He asked his wife for permission to continue cheating. There’s a huge difference.


I met a guy named Jerry at a frat party. We talked in “the voice” from “Seinfeld” and then did the little kicks dance. I think I’m in love.

Yeah, but if you catch him picking his nose in his car, you have to break up with him.


When will you start taking your “happy pills” again?

I am a happy pill.


What’s your opinion of Dr. Drew?

He’s a hooker with a heart of gold.


Is it ever OK to say “I told you so”?

Sure. You don’t need my permission to be a jerk.


What do you do when you’ve been rejected?

I do what I can not to take it personally, and then I move on.


Why does it hurt so much to find out that a recent ex-boyfriend is sleeping with a new woman? We’re not together anymore … so why does this kill more than the breakup did?

That’s what happens when stale jealousy mixes with fresh envy. It’s a brutal combo, and it’s also a big red flag that you’re not over him yet.


I’m trying to get a great internship. Do you have any suggestions on how to stand out with either my cover letter or résumé?  Or both?   

Those are just pieces of paper. Find other ways to stand out than pieces of paper.


They’ve got two young kids and their divorce still isn’t finalized. She’s now living with her boyfriend, though, and it’s just a matter of paperwork. Is he fair game?

Technically yes, although not if she was your friend before you knew him. (Girl code still applies: No dating your friend’s exes.)

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On why it’s okay to feel your feelings.

Dear Coquette,

Whenever I work hard for something and succeed, I feel like I don’t deserve it. It took a lot of work to even accept that this reaction is irrational, but how do I let go of that feeling completely?

By all means, work hard and succeed. That’s great. Just don’t get caught up in whether you deserve success or not, because guess what? You don’t.

No one deserves anything. Fortune and fate have nothing to do with merit. No one deserves to be the Prince of Wales. No one deserves to be a starving orphan in Malawi. The whole notion that any one person deserves any more or less than any other person is predicated on a fundamental belief that there is some form of cosmic justice. There isn’t.

Bad things happen to good people. Good things happen to bad people. The universe is totally indifferent, my friend. Life isn’t fair, and the guilt you feel from your personal success is merely a side effect of your conscience reacting to this cold, hard truth.

The good news is, these feelings are an expression of your humility, which under the right circumstances is one of the higher virtues. You don’t have to belittle your humility by calling it irrational. You merely have to accept it.

If you want to let go of the feelings that you don’t deserve your success, start by recognizing that it’s perfectly OK not to deserve it. Instead, respect the fact that you worked hard. You earned your success, and that’s enough.


What’s the best way to disassociate sex from emotion? Is it even a good idea to do? I can’t bring myself to have sex with someone unless I have an emotional connection with them, even if it’s a small one. Is this normal?

Disassociating sex from emotion is a horrible idea. Actually, disassociating from your emotions in general is a horrible idea. That’s the kind of things victims end up doing to cope with trauma. I think maybe what you’re trying to do is enjoy sex without intimacy or commitment. That’s perfectly fine, but please understand the difference.

Even when it’s “just sex,” emotion is still involved. It doesn’t need to be love. It doesn’t even need to be passion. Sometimes mild bemusement will get you where you need to go, but an emotional connection on some level is definitely something you want to have. The connection may not be intense and it may only last for a one night, but those emotions are still a valid and important component to the experience.


I sleep with guys to feel a little less lonely because no one wants to commit to an actual relationship. WTF is wrong with me?

Nothing is wrong with you. Stop having sex to fill an emotional void, don’t confuse loneliness for being alone, and don’t let your relationship status have an effect on your self-worth.

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On leaving the nest

Dear Coquette,

My mother homeschooled me, but had no idea what she was doing. As a result, I never had any education, period, and no social skills because we lived in the middle of nowhere with no kids my age and she didn’t get along with any other moms. I didn’t realize what a problem this was until I got to college, and now have zero study skills and no self-esteem. I feel like I don’t even deserve to be here because of my cop-out upbringing. She was absent and mentally unstable, and I was left to my own devices and learned nothing that would help me in the real world. That’s my past, which is my responsibility to work on, but what I haven’t been able to do is forgive my mother. She takes credit for all of my successes and then blocks me out when I try to explain how much her decisions screwed me up. I know it’s in the past and nothing can be done; I just want her to even feel a little bit bad, to even acknowledge that she messed up. I’m prepared to work on all my issues alone, it would just be better if my mom was there to help me. Is this selfish of me? Should I just soldier on without her?

Your mother did what she thought was best for you at the time. Is she a bit of a nutball for sequestering you throughout your adolescence? Probably. Did she screw you up? Sure. All parents screw up their kids, but you’re a lot less screwed up than you think.

You’re in college now. Everyone is freaked out by their lack of study skills and self-esteem. Everyone is going through bouts of existential angst and crushing anxiety. Yes, everyone. That’s just the way it goes. You’ve got no choice but to buck up and get over it.

Start by recognizing that what you’re experiencing are very normal freshman anxieties, and while it’s perfectly understandable for you to project all that crap onto your mother, you need to realize that she’s just a very convenient scapegoat.

No doubt your mom is half a lunatic, and yes, you had quite the unconventional upbringing, but so what? Those were the cards you were dealt. Wanting your mother to feel bad about it is a waste of negative emotion, and if she did, I promise it wouldn’t feel as gratifying as you think it would.

You need to forgive your mother, and you need to get cozy with the reality that you’re not a kid anymore. You’re on your own now. The training wheels are off, and that can be a little scary at first. That’s OK, though. It’s supposed to go down like this. Coming to terms with your parents’ flaws is that first big step down the path of contemporary American adulthood.

The whole point of going off to college is for you to learn how to cope without your mom there to help you. She’ll always be your mother, but you still have to soldier on without her.

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On fun-sized advice.

Dear Coquette,

What’s wrong with wanting life to be like a movie?
Wish-thinking is for children and idiots. Grow up.
 

 
I’ve accidentally fallen in love with a man who is the single parent of his 1-year-old son. This is not what I had planned out for myself. What do I do?

Get used to life not going according to plan.


If she’s 26 and he’s 18, isn’t she too old for him? Or him too young for her? I know age is just a number, but there are certain limitations, right?

It’s best not to date younger than half your age plus seven. It works for all occasions.


If you had to choose one Republican candidate, who would it be?

Ron Paul. Not because I agree with him, but because I would love to see that kooky little Keebler Elf go up against Obama, make the general election a really weird conversation, and then lose.


What’s the difference between jealousy and envy?

Jealousy focuses on something you’re afraid to lose. Envy focuses on something you want to gain.


I can’t help but feel like sex is degrading to women.

That’s because you secretly hate both.


When does it stop being liberating, and start being misogynistic?

Is it rooted in a love of women or a hatred of women? Why can’t you tell the difference?


How do I reconcile the fact that I have an awesome boyfriend whom I love dearly, but who is lazy beyond belief and won’t get his act together? I want to conquer the world, but I feel anchored by his laziness.

Substitute “ex” for “awesome.” Boom. Reconciled.


How do you know if you have “the spark” or not?

Fire. Duh.


How do I find the beauty to become confident if I hate everything about myself?

You did not hate yourself as a child. Somewhere along the way, you learned how. Retrace your steps and unlearn. Forgive yourself, and get rid of the negativity.


What do I say to my friend who now wants to study homeopathy instead of nursing?

Tell your friend she’s diluted. (Get it? Deluded? Whatever. Your friend is a nutball.)


What do you do when someone demands that you do something completely nonsensical, defends it due to time constraints, and all because they didn’t listen to you two months ago during the planning phase?

Are they compensating you according to your agreement? If so, shut up and do your job. Otherwise, simply tell them no.


I can’t do it anymore.

Yes, you can.

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